Man do I love blogspot. There's something so, well, old school about it. It's like a good Americano with no frills. There's something kinda cathartic about just a few choices for themes. So I think I'm going to land in this space for awhile.
I've taken well over a year off of blogging. I think I'm ready to post from time to time again. So welcome to presentsicle.
The last year has been an incredible year. The summer of 2014 was epic. As in an epic mental illness summer. For those of you that don't know, for the past ten years I've suffered with on and off psychosis with hard recovery periods in between. After the summer of 2014 I was more desperate than ever. Will I always be like this? On meds for the rest of my life? (Which is what I've been told by the medical community). My life falling apart? My family suffering?
A very long story short, I've found some success with changing my diet and getting on some supplements under the care of my new doctor (who is a holistic psychiatrist). I've also been able to get off alcohol and cigarettes under her care. Granted, I was very motivated. Life wasn't very pretty at times in between psychotic episodes over the past ten years.
I've also had to strip down everything to just caring for myself and my family. So our lives are quiet. There's a new hard though. I've had to deal with lots and lots of pain. I've had so many feelings regarding my illness. Embarrassment. Shame. Betrayal. Loneliness.
The only thing I know to do with this stuff is to take it to God. And He's also been doing lots of amazingness in my heart as I've been able to have the presence of mind for the first time maybe ever to stay on a schedule and do things like clean out closets and cabinets in my house. I think, at the end of the day, He heard my prayers. And everyone else's. He's been cleaning out my insides, ever so gently. Tenderly healing broken and hurting places. He's also highlighted deep places of mistrust and unbelief in my heart and lovingly revealed His cross.
It's a lifelong journey that I'm on...but I suppose what I want to communicate is that there is healing for mental illness. I always thought that I was kind of off limits to healing. Like somehow my brain was just stuck where it was. No so. I've felt good for a year now. And I'm one thankful blogger today.
The number one thing that keeps me sane is living in today. "Today" is such a good boundary. The present is where I find Christ's presence with me. So welcome to "presentsicle" where I will post from time to time.
Here is a fantastic resource that includes research for nutrient based therapy for mental illness. Groundbreaking stuff...
Love,
Natalee
I've taken well over a year off of blogging. I think I'm ready to post from time to time again. So welcome to presentsicle.
The last year has been an incredible year. The summer of 2014 was epic. As in an epic mental illness summer. For those of you that don't know, for the past ten years I've suffered with on and off psychosis with hard recovery periods in between. After the summer of 2014 I was more desperate than ever. Will I always be like this? On meds for the rest of my life? (Which is what I've been told by the medical community). My life falling apart? My family suffering?
A very long story short, I've found some success with changing my diet and getting on some supplements under the care of my new doctor (who is a holistic psychiatrist). I've also been able to get off alcohol and cigarettes under her care. Granted, I was very motivated. Life wasn't very pretty at times in between psychotic episodes over the past ten years.
I've also had to strip down everything to just caring for myself and my family. So our lives are quiet. There's a new hard though. I've had to deal with lots and lots of pain. I've had so many feelings regarding my illness. Embarrassment. Shame. Betrayal. Loneliness.
The only thing I know to do with this stuff is to take it to God. And He's also been doing lots of amazingness in my heart as I've been able to have the presence of mind for the first time maybe ever to stay on a schedule and do things like clean out closets and cabinets in my house. I think, at the end of the day, He heard my prayers. And everyone else's. He's been cleaning out my insides, ever so gently. Tenderly healing broken and hurting places. He's also highlighted deep places of mistrust and unbelief in my heart and lovingly revealed His cross.
It's a lifelong journey that I'm on...but I suppose what I want to communicate is that there is healing for mental illness. I always thought that I was kind of off limits to healing. Like somehow my brain was just stuck where it was. No so. I've felt good for a year now. And I'm one thankful blogger today.
The number one thing that keeps me sane is living in today. "Today" is such a good boundary. The present is where I find Christ's presence with me. So welcome to "presentsicle" where I will post from time to time.
Here is a fantastic resource that includes research for nutrient based therapy for mental illness. Groundbreaking stuff...
Love,
Natalee
No comments:
Post a Comment